Jaxon Kolhoff
May 4, 2026
Fixate on these moments
Clench my teeth
Wonder what my heroes would do.
They would live
They’d take a chance.
Not sit & wait
for something to happen.
My teeth push together until cartilage pops.
I hold my bladder so long I start to sweat under my ass cheeks.
This grand life before me, has no rules.
I Silently wait for a cue,
some beat to play me in.
I keep missing it.
The building anticipation of it comes all over me.
Leaving at the time of my performance.
Lost in a beautiful body
Confused in a large world
So scared of this life
It’s a long time to get old.
This greatness
Wants to break free of me.
Unable to achieve what it needs
It looks for escape
I grant its wishes
The wine walks the impatient child
I sit in the backroom, planning while the young one is distracted.
How will these dreams come true?
Who will bring life to this youthful dream?
When will the restless child
see their tired adult self
Become who they’ve always wanted to be?