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    this is my (first) poem about being a stripper

    Lux Laine

    November 4, 2024

    this is my (first) poem about
    being a stripper
    I made 50 dollars my first night
    and they let me keep 25
    cause it was my first
    after that, 175 just to play
    i drove home in a white and blue
    cadillac
    white body with one blue door
    and no heat
    it was december
    it was detroit
    it was a polar vortex
    i was driving down 8 mile
    my windshield was frozen
    i called my ex girlfriend
    i said
    it’s below zero
    and i’m driving down 8 mile
    and i don’t have any heat
    and i can’t see through my
    windshield
    i get out
    and attempt to scrape the ice
    with my pleaser heels
    then my debit card
    i was crying
    she was yelling
    i was in a coney island parking
    lot
    i don’t remember
    what happened next
    somehow i made it home
    no heat there either
    i lived in a nest
    a blanket fort
    with a space heater running
    all day and all night
    major fire hazard
    i shaved my legs
    in my bedroom
    with dr. Bronners soap
    and a pot of boiled water
    because the shower
    was a sawed off pipe
    from the ceiling of the basement
    and
    when the electricity went out
    for a week that winter
    we slept like kittens
    5 curled on one mattress
    by the dying light of a
    rubble filled fireplace
    i gave myself a
    classic name
    something you’d hear in an old
    movie
    i wore lacy one-piece negligees
    and
    thigh high back seam nylons
    dark red lipstick, cat eyes
    danced to things like
    the Kill Bill theme song
    or Tov Lo’s Habits
    absurdly up-beat club remixes
    i danced for oil moguls
    an African prince
    construction foremen
    the first time i gave it all
    was to a fast food franchise
    owner
    he paid me 2600 dollars
    and a stack of coupons
    for free muffins
    at home I rained the muffin
    coupons
    on my friends
    the whole house
    was draped in
    dried roses
    saved
    from the Trader Joe’s dumpster
    i bought my own car
    then i crashed it
    one week later
    it was a white out
    on I-94
    i called my ex boyfriend
    i said
    do you remember that time
    i couldn’t talk
    for a week
    what do you think
    is wrong
    with me
    he said
    not really
    i think you’re fine
    i was home alone that winter
    when the pipes froze
    then thawed and burst
    water gushing down the stairs
    i had to wade
    through the flooded basement
    to unplug the submerged
    space heaters
    it was 4 am
    and i ate a pot of lentil soup
    swaddled
    in coats and blankets
    i had been sweating
    in a thong bikini
    earlier that night
    i loved
    the strip club dressing room
    the gaudy
    red and gold carpet
    the mirrors
    the perfume
    the girls
    getting spray tanned
    in the bathroom
    pretzels filled
    with peanut-butter
    carrot sticks and celery
    the house mom
    with tiny treasures
    serving-size mouthwash
    needle and thread
    bright pink plastic razors
    lip gloss

     

    it was 2014
    we had Obama
    we had Michael Brown
    and Tamir Rice
    a naive sense of hope
    things could only get better
    to date that was
    my coldest winter
    now the summers
    with their floods
    and screams for revolution
    getting louder
    are a bigger threat
    a hotter sex

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